The Good, the Bad, and the Photo Montage: a life update

It’s been a while, I admit. These past few months have been full of work, doctors appointments, tests, urgent care/ER visits, more tests, medication, pain, and—as of this Wednesday—surgery. The days have not been full of anime, although otome has featured in my real life if not online. (And, yeah, I’ve been totally off socials …

“Gosh, I was so emotionally invested in these cells.” — Episodic Commentary on “Cells at Work”

Cells at Work is all about the daily lives of busy cells within a body (“the world”). These cells don’t always understand the whys of their world or what exists outside of it, but they do fully understand and embrace their jobs with admirable devotion. My back went out again on Thanksgiving, so my husband …

So Far I’ve Come, and Gratefully — a reflection 1.5 years post-injury

Author's Note: This was a post in my backlog of drafts written 1.5 years after my back injury. I don't know why I didn't post it, except maybe that I felt it was self-centered? But? It's my blog? Anyway, I am now 3 years post-injury and going through my 103 unpublished drafts. ❤ I was …

Things I Have Learned So Far — “When I Should be Sleeping” Edition

Morality isn’t always black and white (but sometimes it is), and people are very gray. Empathy (both extended and received) is beyond price. Humans will pack bond with the oddest “other,” such as inanimate objects. You can handle more pain than you think, both physically and emotionally. Depression is a bitch, even if it’s not …

What is actually wrong with me? (No, not those other things.)

Ha ha ha ha ha ha--Wow. A little self-depreciating humor. I actually made myself laugh. The title means to reference what is PHYSICALLY wrong with me. Not the OCD/anxiety stuff. That's another issue I've been very frank about. Now that I'm over the hump of my issues (hopefully and thankfully!?), I'm going to tell you …

“Are you willing to die for me, then?” — on processing, expressing, and forgiving (inspired by anime “Given”)

Think about your first love. Not your first crush. Not the first time someone caught your eye. Think about your first love. Have you been there yet? Now tell me, did it hurt? Please be aware that this post gets very honest, and it isn’t about only romance. The first time you're in a relationship, …

All in all, life is moving along.

The update schedule is telling me that I'm supposed to be writing about my life now. Well, I suppose I can do that and sum it up in one word: BUSY. I'm tired. This whole part-time school/full-time work thing is finally catching up to me, even though it's been only a few weeks. I'm not …

I herniated my spine, but because I am a woman, the doctor refused to get me proper treatment. (or, more positively, “I’m salty but so thankful and I’m gonna be okay, guys. <3 <3 <3")

Doctors don't take women's pain seriously. Don't believe me? See Professor Google. Better yet, here: educate yourselves. I never knew this was a widespread phenomenon until it happened to me. But after months of steadily increasing pain, after all the doctor's instances that I was just experiencing !!!muscle aches!!!???, after reaching an inability to work, all …

Adding new letters to my labels. (Accepting a diagnosis of OCD)

I'm sharing because I really want to help. This is going to get painful, and I may regret it if my identity is ever discovered (please no) but I suppose you've been warned. And Husband says that no one cares to try and find me, so I'm trying to put that fear aside I favor …

May is Hard. (This was supposed to be a blog update, but now I don’t know what it is?)

Warning: I don't even know what this is. Is it even coherent? Maybe not. I will admit that I am not currently my best self. It is with much self-depreciation (and as vaguely emo music plays through my headphones) that I morosely admit as much, but I feel that makes the statement no less true. I'm …