“Somebody make me feel alive.” — CMV/AMV Saturday (10/20/17) – Shoujo Thoughts: ☆ ～('▽^人) Otaku Ramblings

Let’s be real: I have no idea what I’m doing with this. Maybe it sounds ridiculous, but I like Nighcore, the Hakuouki characters, and the song “Shatter Me” by Lindsey Sterling and Lizzy Hale. Combine them and I don’t have a choice but to feature it, you see?

I won’t pretend that this AMV by Mitsu Harlock is the single deepest AMV I’ve ever seen, the fact that it exists was enough for me to draw comparison between the song and Souji.

While not displayed in the AMV, the song “Shatter Me” somehow reminds me of Okita’s fate and choices in ONE of the in-game (not anime) endings. In this particular route, *spoilers* he sacrifices himself to allow Chizuru and her companion (who shall remain unnamed) to escape as they attempt to see/save Koundo before he is executed. In that moment, sick and feeble as he is, bereft of all hope that he’ll see Kondou again alive, he rages against his enemies in a desperate attempt to make his life worth something to himself in the last moments before he’s “cut…from the line.”

And it breaks my heart.

One might also make reference to Souji’s in-game feelings from his own route in Hakuouki: Kyoto Winds. The lyrics state, “I’m scared of changing, the days stay the same/
The world is spinning but only in gray.” In the game, Souji was afraid of becoming useless to Kondou in his illness, of staying stagnant, sick in bed while everyone else fought on. He had little hope. Everything went on without him, the days stretching endlessly as he, in his mind, settled someplace between life and death…

So, like I said, the AMV is not my favorite AMV ever made (though it’s for sure better than I could do with my non-existent editing skills!), but there is just something about it that resonates with certain endings of Souji Okita, and that’s really all I can say.