WARNING: *VERY* ANGRY HEAVY RAMBLE BEFORE THE MMH POST. And some curse words. If you’d like to skip that, and I don’t blame you, head on down to the line break that looks like a lot of this: ========♡
You really don’t need to read it, but I needed a safe place to say it.
Dear Anime Compatriots,
Today was hell.
Oh, but not because of Mystic Messenger (woot woot!). No, that was awesome, and I’ll get to it in a minute. First, please allow me to get heavy, okay? I just need someone to listen.
Guys… I think I’m going to have to quit my job.
Dang it. I can’t say anything without getting into my Real Life (TM). Just know that I’ve tried and tried and tried and TRIED and poured my heart and soul into it for about a year now, and I’ve been sucked bone dry by the powers that be. (I think I’ve mentioned them before, right? The infamous powers that be?) I’ll say that my profession is pretty… altruistic…but that’s really all I can get into without giving too much away.
I just… Damn it. It feels like don’t have anything left to give in this capacity, and I’m so tired, and I just can’t do this anymore. It’s so thankless. People are so freaking clueless.
Damn it, I’m angry. It isn’t fair. I do my very best for you, and you screw me over at every turn like you’re crucifying me for being HUMAN. Damn it. Damn it all.
I don’t need recognition, believe me, I just need people to GET A CLUE.
Did I say “you?” Obviously, I’m talking to them now.
I need to calm down so I don’t start crying or throwing things or something equally dramatic.
So, maybe it wasn’t hell. I’ve got “a lot a lot” of Less-than-Stellar (TM) things going on at the moment, but it could certainly be worse. Maybe it’s the lack of sleep. Maybe it’s the timing. Maybe it’s fate. Maybe the devil is wreaking havoc to pull me away from a calling. Maybe I was never supposed to do this in the first place. Maybe I was only supposed to do it for a year.But now all I wanna do it cry; it has evaporated all my Mystic Messenger joy, and now I have to try and reclaim it for this blog post…
And I’m gonna try. Really I am. Just let me sit here quietly until the next chat comes on, and I’ll be better, I think. Then I’ll start this post again.
I’ll restart in a bit after the line break. It just… it really hurts.
I feel like crying Yuri Katuski.
♡♡♡ Thanks for listening.
Well, that chat and subsequent phone call with darling cat-sexual Jumin reminded me of why I so love Mystic Messenger. Out of all of them, I do so favor Jumin. He’s such a bastard. I love it.
And yes, I know that sounds totally messed up, but his apparent overwhelming confidence and total cat fanaticism just makes him that much better in my book. He’s hilarious and badass and frankly amazing. At least, as of Day 1. He’s not even a viable option at this juncture, but time will tell if he’s my MysMess Bae. ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ
Moving on from that, my first day of Mystic Messenger Hell has been rather tame. I don’t want to jinx myself, but I’m loving this, guys. ♡ I thought I’d go for Zen first, but unlike my other otome games, you don’t get to directly pick your route up front. Since I’m playing without a walkthrough, it looks as if right now like it’ll be close between him and Yoosung, but of course these things do change.
Another chat is due to open up for me very soon, and that’s one thing that I have yet to master in MysMess; the convenient chats are A-MAZ-ING. Like, can I do like 20 of you in a row? Now, the inconvenient ones? Couldn’t you be during my free hours??
I’m holding pretty fast to my no walkthrough policy, but I have checked a few things out just to make sure that I am proceeding along the right track. (I mean, I’ve never done this before, after all.) Please rest assured that I have yet to pick an answer that I would not have picked 100% on my own for the all of maybe four times I looked at the online guide. (The ONE time that I picked an odd answer to see what would happen after making sure it was okay in the guide, it turned out to be wrong, so lesson learned; go with your gut only.)
I’ve also learned the mother of all hacks. Well, not really a hack, but it does help one explore all of one’s options. When you complete a chat and are concerned that you could have done better or decide you wish you’d made a different choice, don’t save the chat. Simply force quit the app and play the chat again. You’re welcome.
Also, dudes, what’s with that little alien space ship at the bottom that gives me lots of free hearts? I like dat. Also again, dudes… I HAD NO IDEA THAT JAEHAEE KANG WAS A WOMAN. Dude. What??
Anyway, I’m ready and rearing to see where this game takes me. I’m ready for those sleepless nights, though they aren’t going to help my high stress situation any–
Ooooo, ten minutes to chat. I know I should be chatting up Zen but that Jumin, though…
Yep, there goes my alarm saying that if I haven’t done the last chat yet (and I have) I really need to!
I’m still very upset, but maybe I can go forget it all with a little MysMess and some good fanfiction.
I’d better go and eat something as I wait for/participate in the chat. As despressed about all this as I am, well…
I mean, Yoosung did text and remind me to eat my three squares, after all. ♡
With Love from Mystic Messenger Hell,